Wolf's Den

Trust is a sacred bare bone,
never secret or protected,
always blindly decieved.




Sacred

But to speak of cold frost,
haunting my wild dreams,
crushing life from this earthly sanctuary
death whispers in my delirious struggles
within the madly frantic forest
in a dark stormy vision of blowing rain
aching to seek the path back to the shining sun.




Dream, and learn My Tale.

I'm off today and what do I get to do? pIck up the computer room.. ie clean house. Yuck. I hate cleaning house. Hated it ever since I had to do field days in the Marines. You know, spotless, no dust even on the toilet seat, fer cryin' out loud.

So what am I doing now exactly?

Well, I'm goofing off on the computer, procrastinating. heh. Cox tech is coming on Tuesday and needs to get to the modem which is conveniently located under my desk, so that means I have to take care of the baskets of clothes from Monday and the comforters which in turn means cleaning out the linen closet to fit them in there.

I'd rather pull teeth at this juncture. I'm feeling that lazy. Of course, I've had no sort of caffiene at this point, so that may have something to do with it. Heh.


Gnostic, if you read this, when you finally find a stable place of your own, kindly send me your address. I'm going to work on typing something up so you'll better understand Ben and my relationship/friendship, something Mark(Max) hasn't ever read, nor will he. Why, you may ask, me? Because I feel you are the one person in my life who can fully understand and appreciate exactly what it will say. }:) And some stuff Mark don't need to read.

Let's put it this way, alot of the poetry I wrote in the last year was because of him, some of which eventually, I'll post here.

Ok, stomach's growling, must needs food and caffiene!!!!

I have a spider living in the cab of my demon truck. Literally. Monday 555am, I go out to get in said demon truck to head to work and when I open the door, run face first into a spider web. Grr, ok, why does it always seem to be my FACE that meets these webs first?

Tuesday, 955am I go out to get in this same demon truck and find a web started from the ceiling to the top of the steering wheel. Big sigh, ok whatever.

Its obviously taken up residence and not leaving, as today I go out to go get a Tazo Chai Frappaccino for my caffeine fix and find not only a web started IN the steering wheel's open spaces, but as Mark so nicely pointed out, stretches across the cab to the other window!
(He commented, anything I can do to help!)

Now, I have nothing against spiders taking up residence, except for the fact that I have yet to see this one and it manages to build its webs in the most inconvenient places. Now that I think about it, I think it tried to build one on my leg yesterday as I was driving, as something kept brushing my leg, but I couldn't see anything. Hmmm.
So I sat there and proceeded to berate the hitherto invisible 8 legged fiend, telling it to build either on the passenger side window, or the visor, or hel, even under the edge of the dashboard on that little shelf thing, anywhere, just not the driver's side!



Meaty Bone has this new dog treat out. 'Chew-lotta' Its this largish bone made out of the gods only know what, that's supposed to be 'deliciously Long-Lasting Fully edible'. Hmm, its been 35-45 minutes and Dante has it nearly gone. Long lasting my ass.

Mark asks what is 'spray-dried beef?' I don't think I want to know. It says you're supposed to give an adult dog 50-100 lbs(Dante is 85lbs) 2-3 bones per week. Oh give me a break, she'd start gnawing on ME if I only gave her a treat 2-3 times a week instead of 2-3 times a DAY! They obviously did not test these out on Akitas first.

I have lost my everloving mind.

 That or I've had too much caffeine for the day. Mark says I'm just plain crazy. Yeah well, right back at ya.

MMMM Tazo Chai gooooddd. Verizon Techs liars, baaaddd, ie they never showed up. The bastards. My neighbors who originally placed the service call were appropiately horrified by the damage to aforementioned Crepe Myrtle. Chris was glad Mark was dealing with the idiots at Verizon, knowing how I am about my plants.

Am getting really tired of massaging Vit E oil and lotion into my hand to keep the scar tissue supple and stop this infernal itching. To quote Ben, I am so over it already. Depressing that I still don't have the strength or cooordination back to do any chainmaille or beadwork, especially since ideas for new beadwork are slowly rotting in this now insane brain o' mine.

There's a tropical storm churning its way up through Florida, heading our way, along with a hurricane wending its way up toward us as well. Means lots of rain, means less watering of my gardens.}:) Means no Perseied Meteor Shower viewing this year. ARGH. *beats head againest metephorical brick wall.*

Am getting 2 and 3 copies of each and every email lately. Ok, enough already, Cox! I understand you had a glitch in the service yesterday, but this is beyond stupid and annoying!

 I realized something today... I don't call home near often enough. Let alone visit. Which, honestly is rather difficult considering I live in Virginia and the folks and family unit is in Michigan and none of us can really afford to visit more than once a year. This royally sucks.Guess this means I should call home more often, but a 200.00 phone bill blows my mind.. another reason we are going with Cox digital phone.. unlimited long distance! Whee.

Never did get around to taking care of the clean clothes.. the same clothes that Aries is currently camped out on top of. did, however, clean off and tidy up my desk. Go me. Half of what I wanted to do got done. Heh.

What is it with HBO and sex related documentries? Either they do a what's everyone doing type thing such as Real Sex, or they do a stripper thing, such as GString Divas or this tripe called Cathouse, about a legal brothel. Sorry, but girl on girl action don't do a thing for me and I find that watching a couple go at it very hilarious, maybe that's why I never actually watch porn. heh. Interesting from an analytical viewpoint, but hilarious nonetheless.

Ok, I don't get it.. they can legally charge you $4,000 just to fuck you?!?

Ye gods, I'm in the wrong business! Oh, wait, I could never manage to drop my self respect that low. Never mind.

 

Argh. proceeds to gnaw hand off to stop the infernal itching

 

 

How fitting, seeing how I was bitten by my DOG three weeks ago-

You have Rabies How you get it: Bite of infected animal. Transmitted through saliva. Incubation period: 21 to 120 days Early symptoms: Mild depression and anxiety, soreness around bite. Symptoms at full disease onset: Extreme thirst accompanied by acute fear of water. Constant state of terror and feelings of asphyxiation and claustrophobia. Final outcome of this horrible disease: You feel as though you're drowning in the thick, confining air around you. Your thirst is unquenchable, but even if it weren't, your acute hydrophobia wouldn't allow you to drink it. Death occurs within a few horrifically bad days due to convulsive seizure accompanied by respiratory failure. There is nothing you can do now but wait for death to arrive and hope it comes quickly. Make your peace. get your own internet diagnosis