9:53 PM
Went to dinner with Ben and two of his friends last night. He called and asked what I was up to. Said he was reading the email I sent him. SAid he was going to go skating and asked if I wanted to go to dinner with him afterwards. Seeings how I was half asleep, I told him to call me back after he was done skating. He had said he'd had a bad day, so I told him to go take his aggressions out on the ramps, he said he had no aggressions(bullshit), so I said to go take his bad day out on the ramps then. He said ok, bye. heh. He called back 45 minutes later and was in a measurably better mood, so I guess it worked.
Actually had fun last night. Am waiting for the other shoe to drop as it was like when we first met, he wasn't ridiculing me or anything, was simply himself. We went to Awful Arthur's after dinner as he forgot his ID and they wouldn't serve him any beer, even though we'd been there(The Deli on Walnut ave) numerous times and had interesting conversations. Told him about a dream I'd had the night before about him, asked if he knew a woman named Stacy, and he don't, so that's odd. He said, so you were the other woman in this dream, huh? I said I guess so. He then proceeded to ask if I'd ever thought about him in a sexual way. I'm a bad liar to Friends, but I did try. I think it floored him when he realizeed that, yes, I'd had sexual thoughts about him at one time, back when we first met, before I really got to know him. I mean, he is a very good looking guy and does have a good soul, he's just lost alot of the time. He's the closest thing I have to a best Friend besides Mark and I don't want to do anything to jeopradize that in any way. So no matter what type of feelings I may have had about him in the past, they will never be enacted upon in any way, on either part.
Its amazing how many people go to a bar that are simply lost. Bars are great places to people watch, which we did alot of that night. You can pick out exactly who's playing who and who's looking to score in more ways than one. I had a guy eying me because Ben was talking to his girl about Ca. I thought it was hilarious. So did Ben. The guy couldn't get her away from the bar fast enough, lol.
He told me that he'd been spending alot of time with Hannah, his 3 yr old lately, something about her mother being in trouble and if she goes to jail, he'll get Hannah. He said her mom seems to think there's a possibility of them getting back together, and he says no way in Hel he's going through that again. In a way, I think getting custody of Hannah would be a good thing, it'd make him grow up faster and realize there's more to life out there. But in other ways, I'm not sure he's really ready for that kind of responsibility. I mean, he has a hard time just making the child support payments each month and doesn't know I've been sending in some money as I can for him, trying to keep his ass out of jail.Of course if he gets custody of her, he'll sue for support himself. I do know that his hanging out with her more has made him lighten up some, his face lights up when he talks about her and he acts/looks more alive than I have seen him in a long time. I missed that about him. Hopefully it'll last.
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